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What Doesn't Kill You...

Apr 10

Apr 10 What Doesn't Kill You...

It’s been a little while since I’ve written to you all and shared some updates, experiences, and learnings… I thought I’d say hi:) As you may or may not know, I’ve been living in San Francisco since July doing my second Co-op. The Co-op

Oct 20

Oct 20

I come to you one year later.  On this day last year I made the decision to share my truth with all of you despite the potential for judgment and with every intention to normalize an experience that is not unique to just myself. Gro

Feb 23

Feb 23

For half of my life, I’ve had a best friend, a companion, a ray of sunshine, and the fluffiest bear in the whole wide world: my Coopy.  I think back to the day I picked him. Little fourth grade me surrounded by teeny puppies with so

Jan 29

Jan 29

Sorry, let me introduce you.  2022 is the year of new beginnings, seizing opportunities, deepening relationships, and achieving inner peace. Here are the ABC’s of 2022: Absorbing all that surrounds us. Asking questions. Ba

Jan 2

Jan 2

It’s Thanksgiving tomorrow so, as always, emotions are running high and I have a lot to say…  To start, this year I have new perspectives. Well, some are old, and some are new. As you may have read in previous posts, I spent some ti

Nov 25

Nov 25

Perspective is a really crazy thing and today on my walk home from work I saw something that had me thinking… I was on my 40-minute walk home, the sun was shining, there was a really nice breeze, and I was just so happy to be finished wi

Jul 31

Jul 31

Monday morning at 9 am I start a new chapter of my life: work. It’s not the actual beginning of my work career, but I will be exclusively working full time for 6 months, living that adult 9-5 life (it’s actually 7-3 but same difference).

Jul 11

Jul 11

In honor of the anniversary of my recovery journey, I have decided to go big or go home. I am excited to announce that I am officially a Project HEAL Ambassador! Project HEAL is an outstanding non-profit organization that aims to break do

Apr 12

Apr 12

I’ve been sitting on this idea for years, and finally I said eff it, it’s time. It’s time for me to stop caring about the shame and embarrassment I’ve carried around for years and harp on the successes and challenges that I have and conti

Feb 24

Feb 24

A year ago I was laying in my bed in Boston when I got a call from my dad that changed everything. As soon as I picked up the phone I knew… the somber tone in his voice, the despair and exhaustion… Bubby passed away. My roommate climbed i

Jan 9

Jan 9

I considered writing about gratitude or family or some other Thanksgiving cliché, and although I am bursting with those warm and fuzzy feelings, I also know this year is hard for me and many others. Holiday time in general is hard, and I

Nov 26

Nov 26

I wish I could be with the lions and zebras... when life felt simpler; waking up to drink my coffee with the sunrise, overlooking the picture-perfect scenes of Africa. Damn. There’s a LOT I’d do to be back there right now. Life was slow a

Jul 26

Jul 26

Grief has handicapped me over the last 8 weeks. My doctor told me that it can be effective to write a letter to the person you are missing, so here it goes… Bubby, It’s 12:25am on a Friday. I’m laying in my bed at home. Julie is out w

Mar 8

Mar 8

I learned more about myself this week than I have in a long, long time. Let me walk you through some of my new realizations. On Tuesday nights from 6:00-7:30 I go to Hillel. I joined a Jewish Learning Fellowship with the hopes

Feb 1

Feb 1

A legend. That’s what everyone calls her, and I couldn’t agree more… One week ago we buried my Bubby. Anticipating the day was brutal, but nothing could’ve prepared me for the complete heartbreak I would experience as I sat through the f

Jan 19

Jan 19

Here one day, gone the next… a concept that I don’t think I’ll ever be able to comprehend. Right now, she’s here. She’s in hospice. She’s sitting in her chair surrounded by so many people who love her. She’s absorbing all of the love and

Jan 3

Jan 3

Today is my favorite day of the entire year: Thanksgiving, a holiday dedicated to turkey, mashed potatoes, and pumpkin pie. But beyond the delicious feast that is associated with this day, it is important to express gratitude. In our busy

Nov 28

Nov 28

Today is filled with extreme amounts of symbolism and a coincidence that seems too ironic to just be a coincidence … I think God is sending me a message. November 16, 2013 was my Bat Mitzvah. On that day, I chanted from the Torah, lead

Nov 16

Nov 16